I've had a serious phobia for the past four years, the one thing I am absolutely, positively sure has kept me from getting published. I've had submissionphobia. I have yet to meet an author who had an agent or editor approach them and say "Send me something, anything, please!" It could happen, I guess, but thus far it has not been my experience. I've sent out a query or manuscript here and there and almost got accepted by Shadow Mountain last spring, but I haven't done a big send out for a long time.
I know why I have submissionphobia, but it's silly, really. Last time I sent about 10 queries out and got five responses. Three were form rejections, one was a request for a partial they later rejected, and one was a vicious, personal attack on my writing. Granted, my manuscript needed some work. I was still new at writing and hadn't learned the points of good editing yet, but I didn't think it was bad enough to be "fraught with punctuation and grammatical errors" and that my storyline was "frou-frou". I let it create a paranoia in me that has kept me from submitting but a handfull of times in over four years.
Well, no more. This weekend at LTUE I decided to put my heart into submission. I set myself a goal and I'm going to share it here to keep myself accountable. I decided to send one submission a day through the end of March and I may just continue it beyond that. I'll report here to keep myself accountable.
Where before there was quiet dread whenever I'd drop a manuscript in the mailbox or hit the send key, today I felt nothing but excitement and determination when I sent my first synopsis to Lori Perkins. She was one of those that hadn't responded four years ago but later asked to see a synopsis. Whether she'll want to take a closer look or not, I don't know, but I'm keeping my fingers crossed and am determined to keep trying until I find a home for my stories.
There's a kitty in the mailbox just waiting to surprise someone. I'm hoping they'll want to take her home with them.
Quote of the day: "Books want to be born: I never make them. They come to me and insist on being written, and on being such and such."